Recently I have had two loved ones whom have been diagnosed with cancer. For now we play the typical wait and see game until we can get more results, more information. This started me thinking. Cancer is a disease that eats you from the inside. It often takes away and destroys the most vital parts of our bodies. I realize though that there is a cancer of the soul. An often un-diagnosed condition that affects those we dearly love, and even ourselves. This affliction eats away at our happiness, our love, and our self worth. It happens every time we say yes when we truly want to say no, when we give up on our dreams (even the small ones) because we don’t think they are realistic, when we don’t take time to open our hearts up to those around us. I know that I have and am still suffering from this disease. I am glad, however, that I know the treatment. To live, to truly live. To begin to chase after those things which stir my soul, to not be afraid to look foolish, to really open myself up to others, and to let loose the love inside my heart. My prayer is that I can continue to walk this path, and to maintain the strength and resolve to not falter or give up. My prayer is that others might see and that they might break free as well. We don’t have to live inside the shadow anymore.


Too long

It has been too long.

Too long since I took the time to really listen

Too long since I paid attention

Since I listened to my own heart

Allowed my soul to speak

Since I allowed myself to feel

Allowed myself to live

Now I sit here with my thoughts

And try to let go

I try to move through the fog

And find my way

Looking glass

As I look into his eyes

I can see the darkness that lies within

The deep abyss of hate and anger

The pit of sorrow and malice

He awaits his chance to emerge

He seeks his moment to inflict himself upon the world

As I look into the eyes of the other

I can see the calm that draws on closer

The peace and love that brings comfort

The heart that seeks to heal

The hands that long to bring healing

As I look into my eyes

I can see the eyes of both men

They look back at me

Waiting for my choice

Waiting for my action

Who will I be today?

The healer or the destroyer?



I will tell you what is right or wrong

I only want to fix you

Standing up here pointing out your flaws

All I want to do is help you

For you to see things my way

But you can’t see past

The wagging of my finger

My ever judging eyes

Standing on my soapbox

Trying to change your life


Getting started

  • I thought I would attempt the blogging thing. My purpose will be to challenge myself with my writing. I have often found that I have a passion for writing, but do not create enough space for it in my life. So, here I will post my writing in whatever form I find it, both past and future writings, as well as just random thoughts that pop into my head. So welcome to my brain and I hope you can appreciate what I put forth here and maybe we will find ourselves on common ground. I may also interject my love of music, technology, etc. however my main focus is on my writing.